tears had blinded my vision
love had blinded my path
i could not hear the melody
but i heard your heartaches
you felt my presence
but did you feel the hurt from within?
have you heard my screams?
or seen the tears from my silent cries?
love may seem so real
but really
it is just an illusion
-love.HATE HATE.love- my floodgate of emotions
emo-fied
I tried searching,
high and low;
in and out;
everywhere i could.
But it turns out that,
i can only find solace,
in my own world of nothingness
I tried with all my might-
to trust.
But emptiness,
was all i got in return.
I tried fleeing,
but all just came crashing back.
I went to hide,
and It was there.
The only place
which provided me:
with comfort,
and protection.
This would be
my impenetrable world.
In the depths of darkness-
I'll survive.
And live in denial.
from.the.within
undeniably,
sadness swell.
happiness purged.
Each day passes,
my heart turns cold.
The inflation of jealousy,
was uncontrollable.
The meaning of joy, gone.
Where has love been?
Why had trust chosen to hide?
Leaving me in lurch-
- of dark confusion.
Darkness as my light.
Leadinging me through,
these heartaches.
Undefined
something's stirring within me.
is it right or is it wrong?
so prominent yet kept within
as the E-s flow into a song.
sung with smiles and sung in tears
in the presence of no-one-knows.
kept in warmth and far from fears,
is that smile beneath your nose.
will it be to stay for long?
or just a touch that simply fades..
like hot passion on the tongs
that is nothing more than a date.
i know not of how it came,
will it just be of another game?
calls.from.the.soul
sonnet of truth
how much does my heart yearn for
and expect for so much more.
dearly gaze upon that face
which smiles with such lovely grace
a touch of an angel's kiss
harbouring within: a bliss
wings that are as white as snow
fluttering in snowflakes' glow.
but clouds of fate brings a twist
and it's now a game of risk.
begone are the sunny rays
as the tears are here to stay
time erodes all emotions
like withering devotion...
sudden inspirations
He's calling
what could a heart yearn so much
for, i didn't know till now.
His love is such mighty touch
that i can't halp but go "WOW"
a smile so gentle and sweet
igniting the flame within
my heart, warmed the soul so weak
that nourished the one so thin
a whisper so soft yet clear
calling out to the famished
hearts, beckoning through years
that home is so near their reach
will they receive with hearts open?
or not know him till the end?
empowerment of Your love over fear
sometimes
sometimes when i miss you
i will just have to gaze upon the rising sun
wishing that you are warm
sometimes when i miss you
i just have to whisper to the wind
hoping that it would send them to you
sometimes when i miss you
i just have to smile upon the skies
wishing that you are fine
sometimes when i miss you
i just have to walk in the rain
hoping that you are dry
sometimes when i miss you
i just have to gaze upon the stars
wishing that you are missing me too
sometimes when i miss you
there's no sometimes at all
imissyou
MELODY OF MONOTONY
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
came and gone
hi people, i have shifted. (: this will be my last post
bye!
loves, mo
"for by Thy grace and by Thy mercy, i have been saved"
mo the emo came to visit just now. but's she's gone now (: sermon was good. ian preached about heaven and hell (: just a not so in-depth touch on though. still, it was good ((:
my heart is set. my priorities are set. my mind is set. my soul is set. i'm all set. to follow You. no one else before you. Oh Lord, don't let me stray. keep me close. guide me to the path you've laid before me. prepare my heart for all that's impending. for i was crushed and far from You. and yet You came with loving arms to pick me up. i'll follow You. from now and till forever. from here to the ends of the earth. i will follow You.
Shout to the Lord My Jesus, my Savior, Lord, there is none like You; All of my days I want to praise the wonders of Your mighty love.
My comfort, my shelter, tower of refuge and strength; Let ev'ry breath, all that I am, never cease to worship You.
(Chorus) Shout to the Lord, all the earth, let us sing Power and Majesty, praise to the King; Mountains bow down and the seas will roar At the sound of Your name.
I sing for joy at the work of your hands, Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand Nothing compares to the promise I have in You.
(repeat)
Shout to the Lord, all the earth, let us sing Power and Majesty, praise to the King; Mountains bow down and the seas will roar At the sound of Your name. I sing for joy at the work of your hands, Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand Nothing compares to the promise I have in You.
i guess some promises and things said do hold void after 2 months.
not every thing is said. not every thing has to be said. not every thing is showed. not every thing has to be showed. you were not my every thing. but you were my everything. were. no more.
mo is listening to "Realise"
Take time to realize That your warmth is Crashing down on me Take time to realize That I am on your side Well didn't I, didn't I tell you But I can't spell it out for you No it's never gonna be that simple No I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize What I just realized That we'd be perfect for each other And we'll never find another Just realize What I just realized We'd never have to wonder If we missed out on each other, now
Take time to realize Oh oh, I'm on your side Didn't I, didn't I tell you Take time to realize This could all pass you by Didn't I tell you But I can't spell it out for you No it's never gonna be that simple No I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize What I just realized That we'd be perfect for each other And we'll never find another Just realize What I just realized We'd never have to wonder If we missed out on each other, but
It's not the same No it's never the same If you don't feel it too If you meet me half way If you would meet me half way It could be the same for you
If you just realize What I just realized That we'd be perfect for each other And we'll never find another Just realize What I just realized We'd never have to wonder If we missed out on each other
Just realize What I just realized That we'd be perfect for each other And we'll never find another Just realize What I just realized We'd never have to wonder If we missed out on each other, now Missed out on each other now Missed out on each other now Missed out on each other now owa, owa ohh Realize Realize Realize Realize uh-ohhh
whooo! i didn't study much again today! hahaha. XP went to plaza sing after having breaky with sak and after know that HISTORY LECTURE HAD BEEN CANCELLED. HAHA! anyways, we were suppose to look for her bible at trumpet praise but turned out that they didn't have the one she wants. so i got her a journal from trumpet praise instead. it's a really pretty journal with a violin and words saying "amazing grace..." on the front page (: got myself Left Behind 1, 2 and 3! XD happiness! teehee. ooh!! bei was really sweet too. got me a bookmark (x it says -
i asked Jesus "how much do You love me?" "this much" He answered and He stretched out His arms and died.
so sad and sweet right! well, i cried )x hahas. love the bookmark!
you know what? looking back to the past three weeks i realised i have really done nothing much at all. don't have the misconception that when i said that i'm out to study i really studied a lot -.- out of the 10 hours mo claims to study, 8 are for slacking and talking and procrastinating. 1 for the loo for i always go to the toilet multiple times. and the other one for actual studying. how sad can this me. i'm quite ready to flunk prelims again.
i will believe in Jesus' name with all my heart, soul and mind. because i know he is the way, the truth and the light. i've been wrong many times. i'm a sinful man often. but God asked me- mo, why was Jesus crucified? then i understood. because Jesus loves me. so much so that God gave His only Son, Jesus to be our sacrificial Lamb. it is because Jesus loves me so much that i'm saved. and for all my doubts that often harbored. they shall be gone. they are gone. because it's true. Jesus had forgiven me long ago. all of my sins. and He loves me. very much. though we're on this battlefield with sins and the devil everyday. know and trust in the Lord. Jesus is always there. just waiting for you to call out and upon His Name, my God will come and save. because He already had (:
have you ever realised that the skies are ever-changing? nothing ever stays the same for today and for tomorrow. just like friends who come and go. but i know, like the sun, my Father in Heaven is always only the faithful one. never-changing in His love. Always there. for me.
(:
WHOOO!!! going to zoo with YF tomorrow! cikalakapiahpiah! cikalakapiahpiah! lalalas~ i'm super excited!! i've not been to the zoos for CENTURIES! hahas. that's exaggerated alright =p what's more! it's my first trip out with YF! WHEE~ can't wait! =DD
went to alvin's church again with bei (: it's an amazing night. not only because sermon was good. but because i could really see God working through so many many children of God! =D the most beautiful part is this, bei is almost ready to receive Christ as her Lord and Saviour! [don't be afraid! don't hold back! isaiah 40:10 digest for awhile more and you'd have realise that God has already open the eyes of your heart!] =DD Praise God!! Hallelujah! i can't wait to share more and more with her! =D GOD loves loves loves you!! :D i love you too! XD
"Your love is amazing, steady and unchanging Your love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet Your love is a mystery, how You gently lift me When I am surrounded, Your love carries me"
can't wait for our Father in Heaven to do more extraordinary and mighty work amongst us! =DD
"Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing"
i want to just sing and praise God all night long! WHEE~
"Your love is surprising, I can feel it rising All the joy that's growing deep inside of me Every time I see You, all Your goodness shines through And I can feel this God song, rising up in me"
okay, enough for today.
yesterday went for breakfast with mummy and daddy in the morning (: then went home to rest for awhile before going for a short morning run yes, mo is running more and more nowadays because she thinks she's growing fatter -.- hahaha! anyway! i felt really satisfied after the run though it was really short! ((: when out with mei and mummy, met daddy at Raffles City so we can lunch together! had our usual Sushi Tei! XD yumyum~ teehee. went shopping after that(: didn't shop much, mood wasn't there =x haha. shan't tell you what i bought =p but i can tell you i'm really happy with my new swimsuit and watch! =D i love my new watch! it's SUPER pretty and has vibrating alarm function! hahha. damn cool damn cool. though, it might not be as cool as someone's *ahem*
okay, it's not clear. but heck! i love my watch! hee. okay, as you not know, this is my first watch after, say, 6 years of not wearing a watch? hahaha, still not very used to it. always forget to wear it too. haha.
anyway! met cheryl at 6-tish. (: miss her sooo much luh! we were suppose to go over to Kath's chalet to drink but had to head home early, otherwise my cousin might be stranded outside home! so we forsake the liquor there. oh! anyway, i met alot of my innova juniors there too. hahaha. namely, seet, nash, benedict and fyn. lol. unexpected! anyway, we left early and cabbed to the 7-11 near my house from ns hometeam chalet hahha. had maggi mee in 7-11. eating and standing! haha! once in a lifetime experience! lucky the company was awesome! [my super hon la] cos the maggi we chose sucked ): hahhas! after that we bought a mini bottle of martell and a big bag of chips before heading home (: well, darnk and played games with bei too. haas! fun and not very high. but FUN.
comparison (: cheryl the tomato SEE! i wasn't the last one to finish it okay! XP
that's how we slept! hehe.
okay, this is very bad for my health. i've gotta stop. all the late nights and drinking. HAHA!
cheryl darling! you're getting too skinny! no good no good! i'll be praying for you! see the doc soon okay! i love you hon!
took photos of my precious winter! she's grown but not much! jiayou grow up my baobei! =D
woke up duper early the day before too! join mummy and daddy for dinner too (: WAH. i see many innovians mugging like siao at civic starbucks too! DIES. studied. but slacked more.
plans for tomorrow! (: -QLC -zoo -dinner wit mosy -study with bei at t2 SB! =D
today's still the awesomest! =D for our God is an awesome God! "amazing grace how sweet the sound"
watched Left Behind 1 and 2. it reveals much. not as much as the Bible of course! but enough. enough to make me cry. as how weak the human flesh is. how easily is the human mind manipulated. how much how much we need to rely on Someone. and that Person, is our Messiah. Jesus Christ. how much did God teach me? i can't count. cause He's been teaching me and preparing me since before i knew it. even right now. i know, and i believe, and God is working in me and you in a very special way that is exclusively in us only. i love my God! =D
new song i wanna share too!
Complete by parachute band
Here I am, Oh God I bring this sacrifice--my open heart. I offer up my life. I look to You, Lord Your love that never ends Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you, Lord In Your strength will I break through, Lord Touch me now, let your love fall down on me And I will be complete in You.
Here I am, Oh God I bring this sacrifice--my open heart. I offer up my life. I look to You, Lord. Your love that never ends Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord And by faith, I will walk on, Lord Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day, And I will be complete in..
I look to You, Lord Your love that never ends Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord In your strength will I break through Lord Touch me now, let your love fall down on me I know your love dispels all my fears.
Through the storm I will hold on Lord And I pray I will hold on, Lord Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day And I will be complete in I will be complete in I will be complete in You
i wonder what Heaven is like. can we just sing praises to the Lord all day and night? with no books to bury my face and expectations that rob my tears?
i believe it will be a place of bliss. a point of time where i'm made complete in God. i believe all human flaws would disintegrate the very moment we rapture. cos Heaven is perfect, why should we ever desire for more? i believe that all that see the Father as their Saviour would be risen to Heaven.
a place full of smiles a place filled with laughter a place where happiness never cease a place where love is abundant a place where melody fills the sweet-scented air.
are you ready to accept Christ as your Saviour?
i know i already have. i'd love to meet you in Heaven too (:
let us be the glorifiers of Your Holy Name for Glory is Yours alone.
